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so my smile is getting duller these days. FUCK! ok thats done. SO for all u happy people out there, im torn between my everlasting grin/smile and throwing a truck full of apples during a driveby. i have been so lazy since my lay off. plus sleep habits are so turned upside down. wait a minute im not lazy i just choose to do less important things when i want to do them. Finding a job these days is easy. finding a lifestyle or something u actually like doing is next to 5 out of 10k. i want to focus on music but dont have any equipment and im such a hater to what is not tight that it would be hard to collab with people right now. its sucks being a no name music guy with talent. i saw a post by a Universal Music Legend, @mr_no_thanks, that made my day. it went something like this : To avoid ambiguity, i'll be on the side of kids that'd rather die unknown than pimp some bullshit for popularity. #rapcivilwar. So us underground people have great minds with smaller bank accounts than those people with great degrees and box shaped thinking. i on some feel good shit even though i dont feel good right now. Welcome to depressed america. We have like a 20% unemployment rate because the numbers are never the truth. im a stay positive because if eminem said he was going to quit at 23 then i still have a lot of shit to do on this earth. i know why im feeling like this. i cant get the music out of me. i have connected with some cool ppl over this last year and some not so cool people who think they are cool as well. here it comes again. wait for it wait for it. FUCK YOUR COOL. ok that one was heart felt. i think tomorrow or today will be a fresh start for me. ROutine routine routine. im goingto workout in the morning with my boy DOM and get this life thing in order again. Unemployment $ really sucks. So to all u out there with a job, a business or your money is nice right now, please be greatful because for every 5 of you so called well off rich people, there's 95 of us blue-collar-hungry-tired-of-working-for-chickenfeed-wages, waiting to whoop some ass to get what we need. its a constant struggle right now but im gonna get there and bring my family with me.

oh yeah i graduatesd with a 1.87 GPA, some i'm merkin people's minds one at a time. You can learn a lot from a Dummy.